Last fall, I felt as if I were walking through a refiner's fire. I felt such unbelievable pressure to be successful in my academic career, in my marriage, and in my spiritual life. A lot of that pressure was self-inflicted by my need to control and to be perfect at everything. But there was a lot of external pressure as well. Life is just hard sometimes.
In the most difficult moments I found a lot of comfort in this quote:
Yes, I recognize that I wasn't experiencing painful injustices, but adding a complete meltdown to an already stressful dissertation proposal situation sure made it seem like the odds were insurmountable.
I had many beautiful experiences during that time. I felt more alert and aware of spiritual experiences than I had in years. I am not grateful for the pain and heartache I felt, but I am grateful for the spiritual experiences I had during that time.